Two Girls. A Guy. And A Pizza Place.

Oh No! Is this the end?

Ok, will come to that later. But for now, I’m at work trying to figure out what I want to eat when I get home in an hrs time. Just got off the phone with Rastam and he was making fun of my eating habits (98.54% were solid facts). Well, I really need to slow down. Its bad. Lennie told me of the -10 years down the road effect-. If I’m still alive in 2018, I’d be the luckiest gedempol-bitch alive.. Hans made me understand the concept of LIVING LARGE. Not FAT. Phat ? Yes.

So, Langkawi trip is only 2 days away. Will be leaving Ampang on 29/12 at midnite (am still confused if it’s Saturday or Friday). So when they go, I’ll go la tak kesah la pagi ke malam. Will be the ONLY girl on the trip, until LiyaNa, Adreanna and Leeshy joins us waaayyy later. A feast - of hamsters? Oh yes.

Don’t know what to expect. I’m preparing for the worse.

On another note- I’ve learnt to let go. Of which I thought I never could. But yes, finally I’m blessed with people around me whom I can rely on (besides my angel sisters). Fake ke tak, belakang kira. Yang dah sedia ada FAKE tu, terang-terang lampu spot lite disuluh with a sandwich board hung on his/her bahu that says “IM A FAKE” kasi letak jauh2 laa..simpan buat apa? How long this feeling will last, well God knows. For now, I think I can breathe better and see things clearer without X with me. Was told not to leave and run away from X, but to face it with dignity. Gua lari, gua bengong. Gua face, gua champion. I’m lucky that I’m getting all the support I need. They observe (critical thinkers kan), and not liking it. Supportive friends with good hearts, what more do I want?

Trying to prove one’s point is not the goal now. It’s moving on with life and feel blessed that benda tu PERNAH jadi, and I became stronger because of it. Again, it’s a PROCESS la.. R&D belum complete, cik kak. Makmal mungkin meletup if salah mix the potion. Takpe la, kalau tak jadi. Mula la balik. Belajar kan? Tak rugi..

Risk is another factor. Lately I’ve discovered that people, I mean some “toot” species called “toot” are afraid of risk. Risk of not having things THEIR way. Wei, this is life la. If you expect everything to be smooth sailing throughout your life starting from pakai diapers masa baby to diapers bila dah tak jumpa lobang jamban (dah tua), pegi la mampos. Life can be easy if you maneuver it well. THAT I believe. But again, how to execute the plan? God knows. Im no OPRAH. Oprah pun boleh tahan bangang kot when it comes to life. Apehal adopt anak anjing ramai2? Duit melambak. Tapi tu laaa..kurang pakai anugerah Tuhan. Again, it boils down to risk. In this case, risk of commitment.

I was (am still) stuck in a middle of serabutness right now. Bukan masalah sendiri, tapi kalau silap approach it can be the reason I jump into the laut and die. I mean, it’s non of my business pun. But things happen kan, so nak put the blame on gua ke nak blame the FATE?

If people are wise enough to think, and MENERIMA HAKIKAT seadanya, Alhamdulillah.

If not?